My Dying Fantasies

Warning: Contents of this blog regard details about my struggle with suicidal depression.   When I was 3 I felt guilt and shame for the first time.      Fantasy: Dying. When I was 7 I rubbed a pair of scissors across my skin for the first time.      Fantasy: Dying by suffocation. When I was 10 I voiced allowed ‘I want to kill … Read More

For the Last 365 Days

So, I’m turning 28 at the end of this month and I used to celebrate my birthdays like crazy. It was a huge deal, and I mean HUGE. I would start making party plans and game layouts months in advance. But a few years ago, it started morphing into something else. Something worthy of dread and anxiety. What happened? Two years ago, it came to … Read More

White-Gloved Vampires

I love YA vampire stories and in my opinion, the biggest hurdle authors with protagonist vampires have to jump is the vampire diet. What I’m going to be specifically looking at is how author’s ‘white-glove’ their vampire heroes. I couldn’t find an official definition for the term white-gloved, but what I mean by that is that the main character is innocent of guilt while participating … Read More

A Bit of Poetry

My brain was in a rhyming mood this morning and I wrote two poems instead of working on my stories with due dates. So I thought I’d share the two best ones with you guys! Without further ado here are the fruits of my morning.   Darkness Do you ever wonder what your mind might sing, or your ears might draw, if you couldn’t see? … Read More

Three Dark Crowns

Around a year ago (seems to be a reoccurring theme with me) a friend of mine said “Jen, awesome guru of YA novels, can you please give me some suggestions of what to read next?” – Paraphrasing. I responded with, “Oh gods yes, how much time do you have?” She had five minutes so instead of listing them all then and there I went home … Read More

Defining Failure and Success

Hi Again! The end of this year is fast approaching. In fact, we only have 55 days until the bells of midnight ring, the ball drops, and the new year is upon us. So I thought I’d take stock of my 2017. I started this blog over a year ago, and felt full of energy and determination. The beginning went kinda like this: First Day: … Read More

Stitching Snow

Stitching Snow by R. C. Lewis and a Reflection on Blurring the Lines    Lines. Where to draw them and where to keep them grey? This question comes to mind with this book, because the lines are too clearly drawn. Though you can tell Lewis tried to blur them a little, instead she just moves them. People are either bad or good; there really is … Read More

A Court of Mist and Fury

A Review of A Court of Mist and Fury with a Reflection on Re-Reading Books   (Spoilers from A Court of Thorns and Roses)   So I’m one of those people who creates rules for themselves: can’t watch a tv show out of order, can’t start a movie in the middle, can’t have an appetizer after dinner, and so on and so forth. I also … Read More