My Dying Fantasies

Warning: Contents of this blog regard details about my struggle with suicidal depression.   When I was 3 I felt guilt and shame for the first time.      Fantasy: Dying. When I was 7 I rubbed a pair of scissors across my skin for the first time.      Fantasy: Dying by suffocation. When I was 10 I voiced allowed ‘I want to kill … Read More

For the Last 365 Days

So, I’m turning 28 at the end of this month and I used to celebrate my birthdays like crazy. It was a huge deal, and I mean HUGE. I would start making party plans and game layouts months in advance. But a few years ago, it started morphing into something else. Something worthy of dread and anxiety. What happened? Two years ago, it came to … Read More

Defining Failure and Success

Hi Again! The end of this year is fast approaching. In fact, we only have 55 days until the bells of midnight ring, the ball drops, and the new year is upon us. So I thought I’d take stock of my 2017. I started this blog over a year ago, and felt full of energy and determination. The beginning went kinda like this: First Day: … Read More

A Court of Mist and Fury

A Review of A Court of Mist and Fury with a Reflection on Re-Reading Books   (Spoilers from A Court of Thorns and Roses)   So I’m one of those people who creates rules for themselves: can’t watch a tv show out of order, can’t start a movie in the middle, can’t have an appetizer after dinner, and so on and so forth. I also … Read More